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Mesothelioma Survivors - Watching my mum die

Posted by Mesothelioma on May 22, 2008 under Mesothelioma

This is a story and enquiry from one of mesothelioma survivor..read more here

Hi,

I held my mums hand and watched her die last Sunday (20/09/2007). She had mesothelioma cancer 5 years ago which came back secondary into her liver and eventually her spleen. She was 64 years old.

I am having a difficult time accepting her death, although at the time of prognosis were told they could not cure it but try and shrink and manage it. This resulted in her having 18 months of chemo in 6 months. In the end it did nothing. I am angry that her last 6 months were full of pain and suffering and had terrible side effects from the chemo. She had no quality of life.

I was with her, holding her hand when she died and although I feel privileged to share such a special part of the human life cycle, it was the most horrific thing I have ever experienced.

Being there and watching her gasp for breath, watching the physical changes to her body, listening to the sounds her body made as she came closer to death all have impacted on me significantly and I am struggling to process everything I heard, smelt, felt and saw.

When my mum took her last breath she squeezed my hand and my dad’s very hard. I am confused as to wether this was her way of saying goodbye or if it was just her muscles reflexing as she passed away. My husband thinks I should make of it what I feel and believe in that.

I cannot believe she is gone and keep hearing her voice and seeing snippets of her when we were together. I am so sad to know she will never get to met my children, nor have the chance to be a grandmother.

Just before she passed away I saw shadows move across the hospital room. I do not know what to make of this. Was I witnessing something or was it the fact I had no sleep for the last 48 hours?

I have been raised a catholic and have a very open mind to all things spiritual but find myself questioning what is there after death?

Can anyone help?

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What to do if you discover that you have a mesothelioma

Posted by Mesothelioma on February 22, 2008 under Mesothelioma

A person from the first instinct, when a diagnosis mesothelioma (cancer, or even all), either of depression and / or panic. It is a difficult battle. The tell all. Everyone is in mourning lost something, if the person is not lost.

In fact, this could be the beginning of a challenge, a life. Although it is never an easy battle in the war, there is always a battle. And that means that there is always a winner and a loser. Why not a winner?

If you or a too expensive a mesothelioma was diagnosed, you are not alone! There are hundreds and hundreds, which this cancer, and they fight the good fight! There is not a single cancer on the surface of the country, did not have at least some survivors. How would it be encouraging, one of the few - in a position to join the rest of the patients to you and tell them that there is hope!

Be of this courage, to think about all the things that you live! Not to focus on the things that are in reach, the shame, fear. Focusing on the future. No matter your religion, faith is a right that scientists can not even consider how it works. Faith is to believe what is invisible. It is the hope in the unfathomable - was the real target, the mountains move because of the faith.

Any action you burn with this belief that you are to those who are for things that you know that you have to see occur. Is it grandchildren? You see it, but now they are there! Is it your grandmother kids’ graduation? Dito! Those are things that you emphasize press forward. This will give you the courage to conquer their battle mesothelioma, and you win. I believe in you.

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